miracle

setiap kali melihat baby yg baru lahir di ward Obstetric or di labour room, buatkan terdetik di hati saya... "Sempurnanya ciptaan ALLAH SWT..." :D it is a miracle! mcm mana drp hanya drp dua sel, bercantum jadi satu, kemudian lahir menjadi seorg manusia.... dan segala2nya telah diterangkan oleh ALLAH di dlm wahyuNya:

Hai manusia, jika kamu dalam keraguan tentang kebangkitan (dari kubur), maka (ketahuilah) sesungguhnya Kami telah menjadikan kamu dari tanah, kemudian dari setetes mani, kemudian dari segumpal darah, kemudian dari segumpal daging yang sempurna kejadiannya dan yang tidak sempurna, agar Kami jelaskan kepada kamu dan Kami tetapkan dalam rahim, apa yang Kami kehendaki sampai waktu yang sudah ditentukan, kemudian Kami keluarkan kamu sebagai bayi, kemudian (dengan beransur- ansur) kamu sampailah kepada kedewasaan, dan di antara kamu ada yang diwafatkan dan (adapula) di antara kamu yang dipanjangkan umurnya sampai pikun, supaya dia tidak mengetahui lagi sesuatupun yang dahulunya telah diketahuinya. Dan kamu lihat bumi ini kering, kemudian apabila telah Kami turunkan air di atasnya, hiduplah bumi itu dan suburlah dan menumbuhkan berbagai macam tumbuh-tumbuhan yang indah.

[al hajj:5]

Dan mengapa mereka tidak memikirkan tentang (kejadian) diri mereka? Allah tidak menjadikan langit dan bumi dan apa yang ada diantara keduanya melainkan dengan (tujuan) yang benar dan waktu yang ditentukan. Dan sesungguhnya kebanyakan di antara manusia benar-benar ingkar akan pertemuan dengan Tuhannya.

[ar rum:8]

bersyukurnya saya kerana ALLAH memberi peluang sy utk berada dlm medic field ni... mcm2 ciptaan dan kebesaranNya yg dpt saya pelajari dan hayati... which mmg selari dgn science... :D

bagi non-medic students n yg belum berkahwin or berkahwin tp takde anak, mgkn skrg nih kwn2 still x dpt memahami apa yg sy cuba sampaikan, tp insyaAllah apb kwn2 experience sdri nnt, kwn2 akan merasai keajaiban ini.. :D bg perempuan, insyaAllah ada rezeki n sampai masanya, kita dpt lahirkan anak... merasai sendiri kesakitan yg pernah ibu kita rasa dahulu, di saat melahirkan diri kita... tetapi tabahnya si ibu, tak pernah serik dgn sakitnya dan masih inginkan anak nikmat kurniaan ALLAH ini...

kepada lelaki, apb anda nnt mendirikan rumah tangga, temankanlah isteri anda di bilik bersalin/labour room... saksikan sendiri kesakitan bersalin yg dialami isteri anda dan ibu anda dahulu [moga dgn ini anda tetap sayang dan kasih isteri dan ibu anda] ~this was what i've told my fren, Shan Min this morning... "love ur wife, n ur mom too.."~ dan saksikan sendiri keagungan dan kebesaran ALLAH dgn melihat proses bersalin nih... (sesetgh hospital kerajaan x bg husband temankan kan??? so meh dtg hospital Tuanku Ja'afar, seremban... kt sni husband bleh masuk... hospital rakan suami... ngee...)

note: being in Obstetric posting, i cant go online as frequent as b4... mmg bz.. sorry ye x dpt nk update this site... pepun, doa ana as alwiz, moga shbt2 sentiasa berada dirahmati ALLAH swt.. (",) take care!

Obstetric

i'm currently in obstetric posting now...

mmg x dinafikan, as wut have the seniors said; this is the most tiring posting! we should be in ward latest by 730am, go back at 4~the earliest~... and EVERY night, again go ward to clerk patients cause we need to cover every single patient in wards for the next day's ward round... esp if we are to be in ward 1B.. yet, we still need to do our routine, study and prepare for our seminars/ task based learning (TBL)...

alhamdulillah... till now, i still can cope with it... walaupun sekarang masa tidur berkurangan.. kalau sebelum nih, hanya 1-2 hari in a week bangun awal in the morning, b4 subuh... but in obstetric posting... i have to wake up early, b4 6 at least, EVERY weekday...

walaupun penat, and the fact that IMU O&G lecturers are very strict in teaching us (di luar, they are all very very nice persons.. :D), but sometimes they do make jokes... which somehow, buatkan rasa stress level tuh turun... here are some of the words they have said today (that i remember):

while attending a patient who is 34 y.0 with first pregnancy, and short stature...

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farahiyah and aziah, nnt nak beranak make sure beranak awal2... we,(he looked at this one H.O [guy]) man are ok, up to 60 pun our fertility is good.. ~Dr ZZ said.. and that H.O gelak dgn bersungguhnya, while kami, ladies, hanyala senyum tersipu2..huhuhu...

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what is ur shoe size??? ask Dr ZZ..

i answered, 6...

Dr ZZ replied, u can deliver baby up to 3.4kg... dan Dr senyum menampakkan giginya..

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another patient who is now in her 5th pregnancies...

so, what is the contraception use?

i answered, "calendar method"

ok... if not b4 this, FTA method is the commonest... kata Dr ZZ sambil tersenyum

well, FTA=Forgotten to ask... coz during our 1st ward round with him, none of us pun tanya psl contraception to mothers who are post delivery... coz at that time, we were still blur and dunno what are the important questions to ask in obstetric history...

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dan kata2 yg selalu Dr ZZ ungkapkan utk explain kpd patients, "maaf puan, kene ajar sket doktor2 muda nih, kalau tak ajar dr awal nnt corrupted.."

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during seminar title: EARLY PREGNANCY PROBLEMS

Dr S said, u are doing "early pregnancies problem"... but i'm dealing with "Early posting disorder" hoho..

he said some more, "you are obstetrically blind... and 'gynaecological'ly dead.."

meaning, since all of us still in our early days of posting, thus we know nothing! which is true.. :D gynaecology dead bcoz we will only learn bout it in sem 9, not in sem 7..

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anyway, i am enjoying it... walaupun penat... at least, this posting prepares me to face my housemanship years nnt which is going to be very very much more tiring!

pepun, moga ALLAH berikan kekuatan kpd saya n rakan2 lain dlm menghadapi posting obstetric nih... moga sihat2 n x sakit teruk smp kene amik MC... :D

NOTE: Dr ZZ ialah salah seorg perunding AMAN PALESTIN! hebatnya beliau, wpun busy dgn tugasnya sbg O&G specialist and IMU lecturer, tetapi tetap mencari masa utk menyumbangkan masa, wang dan tenaga beliau utk Islam dan umatnya, dan utk pelaburan di akhirat kelak!!! ana pun bercita2 nk jadi mcm tuh jgk!!!!! doakan! :D

KL trip

assalamu'alaikum wbt...

saya masih pening ari nih! dua kali telan panadol today... yesterday i had a bad headache... mungkin sebab cuaca panas sgt pagi tuh, and kami berjalan2 di sekitar Bukit Komanwel, sbb nak menyaksikan game 'Treasure Hunt' organised by MSoc.... part of Orientation program utk new Students.... ~ iye, saya, farah n bbrp lg students dr seremban dgn rajinnya dtg ke BJ utk join orientation MSoc nih... :D ~

kami, pemerhati bebas! :p

n ptg tuh, ke International Book Fair kat PWTC... that was part of my plans... sbb tuh saya mmg nak ke KL kali nih... selain join orientation, mmg nak mencari bbrp buah buku di book fair ni... n mmg masa dlm LRT tu, i felt a bit dizzy... tp pejam mata, tido jap... ok la gak pastu... cari panadol dlm handbag, x jumpa... so xpe la...xde la pening sgt... i thought i would be okay.. tp bila dh sampai kat booth medical books, mmg dah tak tahan... mmg tak tahan smp la i vomited twice di PWTC.... haih... x pernah2 kuar berjalan jadi camni... :( usually, after i vomited, pening akan hilang... but not this time... huhu... time to go back... n kitorg singgah dinner di The Mall... ingatkan nak singgah beli panadol mana2, tp eh eh... tibe2 terjumpa panadol dlm handbag! ~ntah camne x nmpk sblm nih..~ alhamdulillah... :D so, dgn panadol tuh, dpt la bertahan.. :) so, they ate, but i didnt... sbb mmg x dpt makan... even the smell buat rs nak muntah... thats why, i kept my nose covered with my hand most of the time di food court tuh... huhuhu

ermm...pagi td, b4 bertolak dr vista komanwel, i did swallow a panadol... then baru ke rumah solehah (satu lg sbb nape sy nak ke KL.. melawat adik2.. :D ).... then, balik ke Seremban.. Alhamdulillah.. selamat smp... n lunch di seremban 2... licin saya makan nasi ayam dlm pinggan tuh! dah lapar sgt, sbb mlm td x dinner... i thought i was totally fine... tp tadi, while shopping jap di JJ seremban 2, mencari hadiah utk birthday Fiza esok, again, i felt dizzy... jadi cepat2 la makan panadol...

sekarang... cam rasa pening gak sket2... rs nak tido aje.. but i wont! sbb nak tgk final cite Ghost mlm nih... hehe.. (farah mmg berjaya influence sy tgk cite nih...) and saya xnk makan panadol lg dah.. xnk dependent on it...

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dan syukur pada Allah... kerana saya and farah selamat pergi ke KL dan selamat pulang di rumah sewa kami di Taman Bukit Blossom nih... alhamdulillah.. :D

selain tempat2 yg di mention di atas, pada petang jumaat tuh, saya jg dpt ke kedai kak anfaal! a.k.a brotherhood arts... dpt beli baju2 yg dh lama teringin nak beli; satu utk saya, dan 2 lg utk adik2 saya.. n petang tuh jgk, kitorg dpt melawat pakcik amir, makcik sekeluarga di Menara Telekom.... mcm2 ceritanya.. :D n dpt jg dptkan buku 'obstetric' yg hanya blh didapati di UM, yg dipesan melalui kawan farah... singgah di hostel Ibn Sina, n secara x langsung, saya berkesempatan jumpa ngan maria!! :D n kitorg jg alhamdulillah dpt ikut program di Putrajaya mlm jumaat tuh, penyampainya seorg pendakwah/ustaz di negara Soviet... menceritakan liku2 dakwahnya di sana..

btw, thanx to kak Ummi and housemates yg memberi tempat tinggal kat kitorg di BJ... wpun they all bz nak xm, tapi kami tetap dilayan dgn baiknya... syukron!!!! pasti azi rindu ngan korg sume! insyaALLAH, azi doakan, korg sume berjaya dlm Final Exam nih!!! (last exam mereka di IMU) and moga korg akan grad, and cepat2 dpt kerja... :D ameen...

Rindu

seharian tak ke ward ari nih, saya sudah mula rasa rindu dgn kanak2 di paeds ward... huhuhu..

that's why i agreed with farah to go on call tonight! :D

note: rindu zaman2 dulu esp when i was about 8-12 years old, masa jadi babysitter utk adik2 sendiri.... now, they are all grown up sisters and brother!

she was born when i was 8 years old...

this boy was born when i was 10 years old

this naughty girl was born when i was in KYS, 13 years old... quite surprise to hear i was going 2 get another adik.. :p

FITNA

sejak kebelakangan ni, semua org sibuk membicarakan isu video 'Fitna'... i first realised it when i read from 'utusan online' last week, tajuk 'Mahathir gesa umat Islam seluruh dunia pulau produk Belanda'... tp, kononnya bz nak exam this friday, so i don really dig into this matter... sampai la semalam, Syafiq membawa isu ini utk dibincangkan dlm 'study circle'... so, from the discussion, i somehow have a rough idea wut the video is all about.... this Geert Wilders used 5 verses from Quran to condemn Islam..but then, x dibincangkan pun mcm mana this Dutch politician brought up this issue??? ~sbb masa pun suntuk... me n farah pun x sabar2 nak ke pasar malam, takut lmbt sgt nnt mahgrib lak... earlier, nk bertanya, ada aje benda2 lain diceritakan dulu... by the time ada masa utk mencelah, it was already 630pm.. huhu~ really, i went back with my mind full of questions marks...

and alhamdulillah, and thanx to syafiq n all yg hadir smlm, kerana hal ni dibincangkan, maka Allah telah menggerakkan hati, tangan, telinga dan mata ini utk tidak melengah2kan, utk ambil tahu ttg isu ini... ~wpun end-of-posting exam hanya tinggal 2 hari lg! =p ~

yes, i have watched the video... early in the morning! ;p n now i knew mcm mana dan kenapa this Wilders nak sgt release kan this video... my conclusion:- he is afraid of Islam yg makin berkembang di negaranya!

the reality is, he juz simply pick up a few versus from Quran without seeing the whole meaning of it... the verses b4 or after the verses... or why the verses tu diturunkan oleh ALLAH utk umat manusia... he juz terjemahkan aje ayat2 quran tu, bukannya mentafsir.... and this guy simply amik quotes from ulama'2, dgn mengambil isi2 yg boleh membenarkan apa yg diperjuangkannya... tanpa siarkan wut hv the ulama' said b4 that.... then simply he made his conclusion dgn siarkan that video! totally unacceptable..!!

sorry Wilders... people takkan tertipu dgn video itu... too vague...

tentang isu boikot... abu saif ada nyatakan pandangannya... pandangan yg berlainan sekali dgn apa yg dibaca di newspaper skrg nih... :D

and pendapat seorg muslim ini, dlm emelnya kpd PPIM yahoogroup ~perubatan Islam, not pengguna Islam~ - "Islam itu agama ALLAH... dan ALLAH akan melindungi agamaNya... apa yg patut lebih kita bimbangkan adalah isu umat Islam, yg dirogol, diperangi, dibunuh setiap ari... umat Islam patut protect umat Islam..."

ada benarnya kata muslim ini... apa jua yg hendak dilakukan oleh this politician, insyaAllah xkan berjaya.... tetapi x bermakna kita buat 'dunno'... at least kita kena ada pengetahuan, utk menjawab setiap persoalan yg pasti akan dihujani kpd kita... utk tetap pertahankan agama kita...

tetapi satu perkara... jgn kita lupakan... rakyat PALESTIN yg masih hidup dlm kesengsaraan... do our part!

updated (02/04/08: 1634) ~ in my opinion, barang-barang Israel pun belum habis boikot, inikan pula nak boikot brg2 Belanda plak... n mengambil fakta drp saifulislam, Belanda skrg mempunyai sejuta umat Islam... if we were to boycott Dutch's products, meaning kita secara x langsung, menyekat ekonomi umat Islam di sana... sedangkan yg terlibat, hanya the Wilders, n gang2nya... even rakyat2 non-muslims yg lain sbnrnya, x bersalah.. kan??? sedangkan Israel, confirm semuanya jahat....(or shall i say in a polite manner, 'most of them'???) jadi, tak apa la nak boikot Israel... drp kita sumbangkan duit2 kita utk mereka beli senapang, meriam, bom dan hancurkan saudara2 kita sendiri di Palestine, Lubnan dan di tempat2 lain...

pepun, kepada semua Muslim, fikirlah! kita baca, dengar pendapat org sana sini, kemudian digest dan pertimbangkanlah... jgn main ikut sahaja tanpa tahu sebab musababnya... :)

note: azi??? masih berusaha utk boikot brg2 Israel ini... slowly... (that is really me! ^_^ , cuba berubah/berbuat sesuatu dgn perlahan-lahan, masih x mampu utk buat abrupt changes.. :'< ) and brg2 Belanda??? ntah... masih dalam pertimbangan... :0)

wassalam.

peragut dtg lg??? :(

today my neighbour came, and told me this scary statement...

"semalam nmpk peragut tu berkeliaran lg kat dpn kedai tu (my taman area).. jaga2 la.. takut dia berdendam ke... mmg motor same.. plate no sama.."

huhuhu... i wont dare to park the car outside the house even during the day for these few weeks... kan die dtg scratch the car.. huhuhu..na'uzubillah... mintak2 dijauhkan...

my action??? ntahla.. thinking of calling the police, so that they'll do rounds at my taman area... lgpun, the ASP officer who incharged of my case dah pesan, suruh call polis if ade nmpk suspect anywhere near my house... but, after bbrp jam dpt news nih, i havent pick up the phone to call... haih... ~i need courage~

and terfikir, patut ke bgtau my parents??? but 70% of my heart say no... xnk wat diorg risau... but, i do and really need my parents' doa!!!! hurmm... so????

ntah...

pepun, rakan2, doakan keselamatan saya di Seremban nih!!! sungguh rasa x selamat tinggal di seremban... =( [not saying that seremban is dangerous, but its my own feeling, after i've experienced loads and loads of unwanted events]

hanya kepada Mu ya Allah, aku bertawakkal! dan aku memohon perlindungan drpd Mu ya Allah!!! Ameen...

YuNi

seorang lagi sahabatku...

ntah kenapa ari nih terasa amat rindu padanya...

terlalu banyak perkara yang kami buat bersama.. since we were in Sunway College..

makan di food court, shopping barang dapur di Giant Sunway Pyramid, involvement ngan Sahabat Society etc...

trip gunung Nuang 2007; anjuran sahabat Society... tetap semangat join aktiviti sahabat wpun dh 2 tahun tinggalkan sunway

air sungai - sumber segala2nya ketika di atas gunung Nuang nih... minum, makan, mandi, basuh pinggan etc... salah satu nikmat ALLAH yg x terhingga... :D

tetap setia menghadirkan diri di majlis2 Sahabat Society... raya celebration 2007.. we went also in 2006.. =) tahun ni??? yuni xde kt msia.. :(

and persahabatan kami makin utuh apabila kami di IMU..

Graduation Day 15-08-07

lagi2, apabila kami terlibat dengan Muslim Society(MSoc)... since we were the only sem3/4 who were in the committee during that time... and we made a good team! -uruskan iftar, berniaga, rumah amal limpahan Kasih, Palestine Week, bekerja dgn kak Yun, Isi Rimba, cake dan kak aisyah, PPIM futsal, dan byk lg! [n of cos, dgn kerjasama drp comm. members yg lain gak, n kwn2 lain]- alhamdulillah...

cake! cake! sape nk beli cake??? tgh2 is farah: yg sentiasa ada di sisi kami utk membantu! ringan sungguh tgn farah.. :) thanx farah!!!

and yuni memperkenalkan ku kepada 'RUMAH SOLEHAH'... since that, kami berdua selalu aje ke sana... berjumpa adik-adik sekalian... kadang2, kami pergi bersama2 teman lain...

aiman, si kecik dr rumah Solehah yg sungguh petah bercakap... n suka senyum... yg buatkan ku n yuni sentiasa x sabar2 mahu dtg lg ke sini..

ada sesetengah org berkata- kami mcm kembar??? :)

rindu solat berjemaah dengannya.. rindu berkongsi cerita dengannya... (lagi2, zaman di dalam committee MSoc, yg x berkesudahan ceritanya.. ehehe... tp semuanya membekalkan pengalaman... pahit manis.. yg penting, being in MSoc com, matlamat kami satu -"utk Islam, utk muslim di IMU") rindu berjalan2 di bukit Komanwel... and dgn yuni, we alwiz came up with so-called 'surprise party' tiap kali nak meraikan burfday rakan2...

farewell party utk warga pakcik amir's cafe

and lagi best, bila yuni turut join group usrahku.. (after group usrahnya yg terdahulu terbubar, sbb ramai ahlinya dah xde, fly ke sana situ) hurmm..so apa lagi, makin byk isu yg dibincangkan bersama! :D

mereka... merekalah penyinar hidupku...

rasa sungguh senang sekali berkawan dengan yuni... senang utk diajak utk buat apa aje.. :D lagi2, interest kami lebih kurang sama... wpun ku x bertaekwando spt yuni..~heheh~

and yuni yg sungguh rajin dan penuh bersemangat nih, selalu aje buatkan ku juga jadi turut bersemangat sptnya... and yuni, she alwiz thinks about others first before thinking bout herself... camne nk cari kawan camni??? even diri sy sendiri pun, saya akui, kdg2, saya akan fikirkan ttg diri sdri dulu..huhuhu... but yuni, u really taught me a lot bout friendship!!!

Tudung ku, jubah+tudung yuni: courtesy of kak Ummi.. :D (dlm kata lain, pinjam! :p) doakan! moga kami istiqamah! moga insyaAllah, hari ke sehari, ada perubahan ke arah kebaikan yg berlaku pada kami... termasukla dr segi pemakaian.. ameen!

yuni, thanx for everything!!! insyaAllah, moga Allah pertemukan kita lagi! chaiyo'... cepat2 pulihkan semangat tuh... moga cepat2 dapat adapt ngan new environment.. dgn life di tazmania...

last day yuni di Msia; 03-02-08, anta yuni di KLIA.. jauh di mata, dekat di hati! =) UF!

latest news yg ku dpt pasal yuni... alhamdulillah, currently dia and fatin ikut program di masjid tazmania yg dekat ngan rumah diorg... so, menurut yuni, every weekend, diorg dua akan ajar kanak2 mengaji! alhamdulillah!!! ~sungguh gembira dgr cite kawan2 di overseas yg makin mantap nih!!! :)~ wpun mungkin di Tassie xde 'tanzim penggerak' for now,-huhu, sian diorg-, tapi ku yakin, dgn semangat yg ada pada yuni and fatin nih, diorg ni lah akan jadi penggeraknya nnt! insyaAllah..ana doakan!!! -mmg menunggu saat2 korg smpkan berita gembira ni-

yuni, ku sayang bangat sama kamu! saya sayang kamu kerana ALLAH SWT!!!! :D moga sama2 terus berada di jalan yg diredhaiNYA... ameen!