try not to cry

was 'lepak'ing in library again today... for research purposes... waiting for an email reply from prof CSK, in case if he wants me to change anything, then i could juz do it on the spot coz i can only get SPSS software from IMU's computers...

waiting and studying at the same time... while praying hard i dont have to make any big changes to our research results.... ~or else, i would be spending another night at IMU library today~

unfortunately, didnt get any reply... dlm hati, i was like, 'wut if prof only reply by tonight and i need to do changes??? wut will i do then???' hurmmm...

bila dah penat belajar, n i pun started to feel sleepy, so i went to read newspaper... and i read this one section dlm berita harian bout "dakwah dlm hip hop" and the big heading drew my attention... so i read it till the end... the author introduced to the readers 2 hip hop group... "the soldier of ALLAH" and "Outlandish"

and i juz realised, this "Outlandish" is the group yg nyanyi "i'm calling u"... a song that i was first introduced by fatin... -sesapa nak dgr bleh aje ke frenster cik fatin kita, or di frens list saya, fatin is known as bankyoshilang-

besides that song, there was another song, "try not to cry".. i was eager to listen to it as it was described as a song that dedicated to all children who are suffering from heartless people...

so i downloaded it tadi... :D and after listening it to it for a few times, i admit, i fall in love with this song! :D



[owhh..my laptop is being hijacked by a 'very mean' virus, which does not allow me to access youtube, AT ALL!... so cant post the video here.. :( ~ -nway, sesapa tau camne nak treat this virus????- ]

update on 080808-

alhamdulillah..laptop azi skrg dah bleh access youtube blk!!! :)) ~senyum smp ke telinga kerana gembira~ thanx to baiti sbb introduce kan pada a new anti-virus software!!! :)
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to my younger brothers and sisters... TRY NOT TO CRY! Our du'ahs are with u!

back pain

i'm having back pain! :( quite bad i guess.. for now, this is the worst episode that i ever have... huhuhu

it started after i had to stand for about 3 hours during our case presentation... even though later i got to sit during lunch hour and afternoon seminar, but the pain didnt go off.. and later in the evening, again i had to stand during our extra class with Mr. CTC (HTJ orthopaedic surgeon) ~ohh..he's soo nice, willing to do extra class for us without being paid... n some more, he's the one who suggested about this class, not us who requested for it...~ may God bless u Mr. CTC! :)

and yes, yesterday was a very tiring day! i thought of not having dinner, so that i could go to sleep immediately after maghrib... but then, we masak juga the meal.. so, ended up i slept around 10pm... i had difficulty to sleep... i tried so many positions juz to relieve my back pain.. but didnt help... i even tried to put pillow under my back, but it worked for a while je.. :( so in the end, i juz ignored it...

bangun pagi, i felt a bit better bout my back pain... :D but unfortunately, another sakit plak dtg.. :(( felt very uneasy while i was in ward this morning, so i decided to go back to IMU and rest before going to operation theatre... ~tapi this kind of pain, eventhough it's very painful, but then, i consider it as a normal pain..~

and later, di OT, bout half an hour standing... dush.. my back pain came back! haih... terasa cam org tua la plak.. time tuh, dua2 sakit ada..

and now, di kala pukul 821pm 8th July, only back pain remains... hurmm... hrp2, in these few days, no more long hours of standing is required.. at least, till this back pain subsides...

tp pepun, dalam kesakitan, ada nikmatnya.. :D i dont consider my back pain as a severe pain coz i know, some patients in wards experience much more severe pain than me... and at least, my back pain only occurs once in a while... not like my other friends who have osteoarthritis, they have to bare the pain everytime when we need to stand for long hours... ~huhu..poor them, soo young, yet have OA (`?') ~

alhamdulillah... thank you ALLAH! :D

verse of the day:

What can Allah gain by your punishment, if you are grateful and you believe? Nay, it is Allah that recogniseth (all good), and knoweth all things.

[ an nisa': 147]

penat

These few days azi rasa penat yg teramat...

and kemuncaknya was yesterday! mmg since tghari smlm, after CP ngan prof HS, i had this very-unlikely-achievable-wish; that i would be at home, sleeping on my single mattress, while the rain continue to pour outside the house!... but of coz, it didnt happened, as i had a long long day yesterday...

the very last time i felt like this, masa first week of obstetric posting... ingat lg masa minggu itu, kemuncaknya was on the friday night of that very first week... even though hari 'bekerja' telah berakhir, but then, i need to go back to hospital for my weekend oncall... and tha fact was the days and nights before, my groupmates and i had been spending almost of our time in wards... pagi petang siang malam! ~but i know, during that time, i was not the only one yg rasa penat, but the whole group! =)~

itu cerita ketika Obstetric posting... but currently, azi penat dgn research+keperluan utk buat revision for final exam+study utk current posting... but being azi, i know that i cannot do multiple serious jobs (esp tasks yg involve studies!) at one time... so currently i am concentrating on my research project... rasanya, i hardly open my orthopaedic books since i started ortho posting.. :(

but ini la hidup... and dlm menghadapi life ni, setiap hari, i do pray hard that my busy life wont make me forget my lifetime 'job'... my responsibility as ALLAH's SERVANT!

ok... better stop... n i really need rest... esok is another 'long' day waiting for me! walaupun esok adalah hari sabtu... :(

~bestnya adik aiman syafie ni tido!!! :D k.ji dia dtg visit pun dia x bangun2 jg =P~

hopefully, by ahad nih, at least dapatlah spend more time reading ortho book...:D insyaALLAH.. moga Allah permudahkan segala urusanku.. :D

to all frens, doa ana utk kalian - barakallahulakum! (",)

p/s: azi pun penat juga ngan pelbagai cerita politik skrg nih!!!!! penat nak analyse cerita2 di media! lebih kurang penatnya dgn penat nak analyse my research results! :p

bawang dan cili api

venue: Dapur Rumah Tmn Bukit Blossom

time: 620-730pm or 755-820pm

aksi menonton kisah sedih berlaku... kerana bawang merah yg ada di dapur skrg amat la memedihkan mata... menyebabkan air mata keluar tanpa dipinta ketika bawang dihiris-hiris utk ditumis... :)

dan aksi pertandingan bersin dan batuk berlaku antara dua chef, chef amatur azi dr Terengganu dan chef Farah dari Penang kerana cili api yg ada di dlm peti ais skrg amatlah berapi2.. menusuk hidung baunya apabila cili2 api ini dimasukkan dlm minyak panas bersama bawang putih dan merah... =p

dan lately, aksi tumbuk menumbuk bahan2 tumis amat jarang berlaku... kerana chef2 dari dapur Blossom amat la takde perasaan utk menumbuk... ;) dan di kala malas nak menumbuk, terasa aje nak import cik fiqah yg terkenal as si pemasak nasi B1-13-4, dan cik shikin yg dulunya popular dgn si pembasuh periuk nasi B1-13-4, utk memeriahkan dapur... =D dan x lupa, seorg lg warga B1-13-4, cik fiza yg mmg femes ngan title - si pembawa lauk-pauk! yg disandang oleh cik shikin jg... =>

owh... titles ini diberi oleh azi =p kerana mereka adalah insan2 yg predominantly melakukan perkara2 yg dinyatakan, berbanding dgn org2 lain... dan aktiviti masak memasak.... of course la semua org involved! ngan skills and resepi masing2! :D

wahai warga ex-B1-13-4, saya rindu anda semua!! ('.')

~ana uhibbukum fillah!~

fiza, fiqah, azi, shikin, farah

-IMU raya celebration 2006-

hurmm...post yg agak santai... :D

-tetapi, wpun santai...rsnya lebih bermakna diselitkan jg sedikit pengajaran di sini..=) -

jadi jom kita fikirkan, bagaimana cili yg kecil itu dpt menusuk masuk smp ke hidung kita sehingga membuatkan kita bersin??? dan sebenar2nya bersin itu adalah satu mechanism utk airway protection! hurmm... tidakkah kita menyedari betapa hebatnya ciptaan ALLAH SWT??? Maka nikmat Tuhan kamu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan? [ar-Rahman]-

RM 1 juta

On the way to hospital this morning... and tetiba terdgr tajuk 'hot chat' hari ini... sukan dan 1 juta ringgit! and from the deejays, ia berkaitan dgn tajuk berita hari ini... "insentif satu juta utk pemenang emas di Olimpik".. wow!

mcm x percaya... tanye farah, memecahkan kesunyian pagi ini... "satu juta sorg ke ape??"

banyak kan??? if i were one of the athletes, after menang emas, then dpt that 1 million, of coz la my best option is utk bersara aje drp sports and duk umah jaga anak2.. =P ~contoh aje yek!~

ntahla... i dunno wut r the logics behind this RM 1M incentive... i do accept the idea and understand the necessary of rewarding a person.. which basically to encourage them to work harder and at the same time, encourage others to work hard too... mmg patut! as this is what we called 'token economy' in psychiatric term... part of behavioural therapy..

tetapi, apabila ia terlalu banyak sgt... i guess this token economy therapy xkan berjaya... like i described juz now la... contohnya the unexist-azi-the-sportwoman akan berhenti drp melempar discus, bermain hockey, or bermain badminton...

if kerajaan really wants to encourage the sportmen/women, why not naikkan up to RM 200k-300k je??? [previously RM 160k] its more than enough.. ~i think! well, ini pendapat seorg yg kurang materialistic~ and the balance RM 700k tuh, bleh la dibahagi2kan kat golongan miskin di Malaysia nih yg masih berlambak lg!!!! bayangkan, klu bagi RM 10k utk golongan ini mulakan business, bercucuk tanam.. rm700k tuh dah bleh diberi kpd 70 keluarga miskin... tak gitu???

azi berkata pada farah.. "haih.. guna duit tuh utk subsidi minyak lg bagus!"

yela... sejak kenaikan minyak nih, mcm2 isu timbul... pengusaha bas teksi complained, lori2 pun komplain, airlines companies pun bersuara...and latest, pengusaha stesen minyak pun complained! ~seb baik diorg x jadi mogok esok.. :D ~ kesan selanjutnya, sesetgh barang2 keperluan pun naik harga... =( dan itu berita2 yg nampak di kaca tv, or di atas surat khabar... yg lain yg kita x nampak???

hurmm... itula kan... azi tak nampak di mana pergi logik akal pihak kerajaan utk menaikkan insentif nih di kala rakyat Malaysia bergelumang dgn isu2 ekonomi...

dan alangkah lagi lagi bagusnya klu mmg betul kerajaan ada extra duit RM berjuta2 nih, diberi pada rakyat Palestin or rakyat Iraq! bantu mereka utk melawan Israel dan so-called-pemimpin Bush itu! at least, duit rakyat drp bayaran segala cukai, rasa amat berbaloi... takpun, tambah lg quota biasiswa utk pelajar Msia... at least, dgn memberi ilmu pada mereka, nnt mereka dpt berkhidmat pada negara! jadi doktor ka, engineer ka or ape2 la yg berguna utk masyarakat! senang hati rakyat!

dan x dinafikan, menjadi pemimpin ini bukanlah satu kerja yg senang... ia tanggungjawab yg besar!!! mereka kena fikirkan perkara ini semua... perlu fikirkan setiap perkara yg mereka buat, mendatangkan manfaat kpd org2 yg berhak... bukannya hanya kpd diri sdri...

~dan teringat saat azi dan rakan2 berada dlm committee Msoc dahulu... sbhagian drp committee members, amat takut nak claim duit minyak, or duit prepaid yg digunakan utk menjayakan sesuatu program... kerana takut dgn amanah yg dipegang... takut klu claim walaupun sedikit aje amountnya, terselit sejumlah duit yg tak digunakan utk tujuan memajukan ummah ketika itu... dan takut sekiranya niat asalnya menerima tanggungjawab ini terpesong, jika terlalu mementingkan kebendaan~

sbb itu, azi percaya, sesiapa yg ingin menjadi pemimpin, mereka perlu bersedia! bersedia utk berkorban tenaga, masa dan wang... imbas kembali kisah sahabat2 dahulu, yg Khalifah2 atau gabenor2 tak terima duit baitulmal... mereka bekerja sendiri utk menyara keluarga.. tak guna duit kerajaan walaupun sbnrnya mereka berhak... owh...kagum sggh dgn sifat2 para sahabat!~hah..rasanya azi nak buka satu category baru... kisah para sahabat! supaya kita bleh ambil pengajaran drp kisah2 mereka.. iA, doakan ada masa utk berbuat demikian (^,^)~

dan itulah cerita utk hari ini... ia hanyalah my humble opinions towards this current issue... pendapat seseorg yg masih belajar utk survive di dunia yg penuh dgn cabaran dan juga seorg yg cuba mencari keredhaan ALLAH SWT...

ermm...pendapat korg plak camne??? RM 1 juta utk pemenang pingat emas olimpik??? is it really necessary?

-ok, azi hanya bahaskan isu insentif rm 1 juta di sini... isu naikkan duit pencen para atlet, i have no objection at all! afterall, after dah berjasa pada negara, tak salah kerajaan naikkan duit pencen for them to survive dgn keadaan ekonomi skrg.. :D -

p/s: pepun, azi tetap menyokong atlet2 negara... dan azi a bit disappointed sbb team hockey Malaysia x layak ke olimpik tahun ni. =(

solat Dhuha

"solat Dhuha.. sunnah yg makin dilupakan"

sama ada di'quote' drp mana2 ustaz, ataupun ungkapan ini saya baca drp mana2 artikel...

ntah.. x pasti..

tetapi, saya kat sini, bukanla nk huraikan quote di atas... tetapi nak mengajak kita semua solat dhuha! :D

di pagi minggu nih, sambil bermalas-malasan, apa salahnya rajinkan diri utk beribadah kpd ALLAH...

sebelum tgk cerita cartoon di TV tuh, ataupun sebelum bersiap2 utk keluar shopping... :D ataupun yg keluar di pagi hari utk melakukan riadah, apa salahnya slps membersihkan diri ringankan tulang mengambil wudhu' dan bersolat...

tak susah... 2 raka'at aje minumum nye... and bukannya tiap2 hari buat... saya tau, kalau weekdays kita semua bz dgn kelas, kerja etc... jadi gunakanla peluang dua hari - sabtu ahad ini utk cuba menunaikan dhuha!

beberapa hadis ttg solat dhuha: -

1- hadis Qudsi-

“Wahai anak Adam! Bersembahyanglah untuk Aku di awal pagi, niscaya Aku akan mencukupimu di akhirnya.”

(Riwayat Ahmad)

2- daripada Abu Hurairah katanya:

Kekasihku Rasullullah SAW telah berwasiat kepadaku tiga perkara, aku tidak meninggalkannya, iaitu ; supaya aku tidak tidur melainkan setelah mengerjakan witir, dan supaya aku tidak meninggalkan dua rakaat solat Dhuha kerana ia adalah sunat awwabin, dan berpuasa tiga hari daripada tiap-tiap bulan”

(Hadis riwayat Al-Bukhari dan Muslim)

dan lbh banyak hadis ttg solat dhuha di- alivewire

dan jg artikel ttg solat dhuha di - tp-tazkirah

selamat beramal! (",)

Kg Parit Kadir

Gambar-gambar di Batu Pahat... :D

Hari pertama... ~14 June 2008

Di Pagi hari...

Health Screening

for females...

inilah keje azi...

adik2 yg setia menunggu turn masing2... Health screening for children

with farah..

mesti ambil tahu! kata pharmaniaga.. (main sponsor)

~dah tghari, cuaca pun panas, n muka msg2 pun dah berminyak..hohoho~

Di petang hari...

program utk adik2 sekolah..

latihan dalam kumpulan

Di Malam hari...

special performance from Pharmaniaga

us, C207 representatives with 2 kiddies... -farah, azi, iefa, tuck kit, andre and wan chieh-

Hari Kedua... ~15 June 2008

Awal pagi, ambil gambar kenangan dgn keluarga angkat dulu...-inilah keluarga angkat kami-

cerita behind the scene - mak angkat x muncul2 semasa acara penyerahan acara anak angkat di waktu opening ceremony... tapi, finally, mlm tuh ms malam kebudayaan, mak angkat muncul jua... :D klu tak, jadi 'anak2 terbiarla' kami bertiga... huhuhu~

first event of the day... aerobic :- tgk si farah n iefa! :p

pastu, acara sukaneka... si adik angkat bersungguh2 meniup tepung..

tiup dik tiup!

The Organizers - Sem 10 students with Pharmaniaga and adik2 kg Parit Kadir + a few students from Seremban CS

spot me!

acara tarik tali... wanita2 kg Parit Kadir vs IMU female students

adik2 angkat no 2, 3, 4... fitri, ajim n nabihah

gotong royong masak for lunch... akak2 yg akan grad soon!!! ~angah, kak rin n kak zakiah~

mula2 berlima...

pastu kami di'dera' utk habiskan nasi yg ada..

kesimpulannya --> i enjoyed it very much! yg plg best, i have gained loads and loads of new experiences! :D looking forward for the next overnight kg Angkat project! (",)

Alhamdulillah... =)

p/s: more pictures @ my frenster:- http://profiles.friendster.com/azirazak