di saat exam yg hanya tinggal 4 hari lagi

sudah lama x update.. huhu.. bukan setakat update blog, but lately, nak bukak laptop pun kurang... kenapa? hurmm... F.I.N.A.L E.X.A.M! bukan final xm as medic student, tapi ia adalah final utk sem 7 ni.. but still, it sounds scary... :( with only 2 weeks of study break ngan SEVEN postings yg perlu di'cover'.... plus, yg plg menggerunkan, if a student fail in this exam, there is no chance for him or her to resit the exam... and jawapannya, kenalah repeat semester... huhu..

takut memang takut... gerun mmg gerun... perasaan nak cepat habis pun ada... perasaan nak relax pun ada... dan perasaan yg plg plg dominant, perasaan yg penuh dgn tanda tanya... apakah nasib diri ini selepas 20hb??? huhuhu... ntahla.. azi pun tak tau.. hanya ALLAH aje yg MAHA MENGETAHUI..

tetapi azi berpegang pada satu kata2 nih... kata2 yg kita semua amat familiar, sejak sekolah lagi... antara kata2 favourite yg selalu ditulis dlm good luck notes/cards utk kwn2 or seniors, juniors zaman kat sekolah menengah dulu..

USAHA+DOA+TAWAKAL= KEJAYAAN... insyaALLAH...

dan insyaALLAH, selagi bernafas, kami, pelajar2 medic IMU akan cuba berusaha! :D walaupun terasa byk lg yg tak terbaca... dan exam hanya 4 hari lagi... huhuhu... mmg terasa x sempat nak cover semua, tetapi di saat inilah doa+tawakkal itu berperanan... moga ALLAH bantu kami semua... moga ALLAH permudahkan segala2nya!

sahabat2 di luar sana, doakan utk kami juga!!!! :D jzkk

Tanggungjawab

seandainya masa boleh diputar kembali, aku berharap aku pada ketika itu mempunyai kekuatan utk mengeluarkan suaraku...

aku berharap aku dpt mengingatkan mereka tentang tanggungjawab mereka, walaupun mereka itu lebih tua ataupun org2 dihormati... tetapi pada ketika itu, mulutku hanya terkunci... :(

akhirnya aku hanya mampu menangis di dlm hati... dan air mataku tak dpt ditahan, aku menangis di dalam solat... malu utk berhadapan dgn Tuhan yg menciptakan diri ini... kerana pada ketika itu, aku tidak menjalankan tanggungjawabku sbg khalifahNya di muka bumi ini... :( dan aku takut dgn azab2 Allah, kerana aku tidak berusaha 100% utk menyeru kebaikan, menghalang kejahatan...

dan pastinya, masa yg berlalu tidak akan dpt diulang kembali... spt kata imam Ghazali;- perkara yg paling jauh dgn manusia adalah 'masa lalu'...

tetapi peristiwa itu, mendatangkan seribu penyesalan buat diriku... dan memberi sejuta pengajaran buat diriku!

aku sedar, ini tanggungjawabku! terasa amat berat.. tetapi seberat mana pun, aku perlu memikulnya...

aku berdoa, moga ALLAH memberikan kekuatan kpdku utk berada di jalan dakwah ini... moga aku dapat menjalankan amanahNya dgn sebaik2nya... aku sedar, tarbiyah perlu diberi kpd mereka yg masih belum memperolehinya secara 'total'... terutamanya kpd mereka yg berada di sekelilingku... dan itu lah tanggungjawabku!!!

dan semalam...

aku berfikir, sampai bila aku perlu menunggu??? umur makin meningkat... dan usia utk aku berada di muka bumi ini makin berkurangan... masa berlalu, sehari demi sehari... jika aku tidak memberanikan diriku pada hari ini, bilakah lagi aku ini memulakan 'mission' ku ini??? aku tak mahu mati dalam keadaan aku tidak menyempurnakan tanggungjawabku ini... atau org2 di sekelilingku meninggalkan alam dunia ini dgn dosa2 yg tidak patut mereka dapat... hanya semata2 kerana aku tidak berani utk mengingatkan mereka atau memberitahu mereka...

owh azi... kuatkan semangatmu! kumpulkan keberanianmu!!!

ya Allah, moga Engkau memberikan kekuatan kepadaku utk menyatakan KEBENARAN!

p/s: currently in depressed mood... kerana mengenangkan keadaan diri ini yg sungguh lemah! :(

kisah si A

si A nak ke daurah a.k.a majlis ilmu di suatu tempat yg lebih kurang 60-80 km jauhnya. tetapi kerana duit biasiswa semester ini yg dah habis digunakan, dan utk coming semester belum lagi masuk, jadi si A tidak mempunyai wang yg cukup utk ke sana... jadi, si A bercadang utk meminjam wang drp kawan2nya... tetapi si A sebenarnya masih berhutang dgn bbrp org rakan2nya...

ermm...jika anda si A, mana anda pilih? pinjam duit utk menghadiri majlis ilmu??? or pilih utk tak pergi ke daurah tersebut???

(",)

soalan kedua, sekiranya anda sahabat kepada si A nih, apa yg anda akan buat??? dan kemudian, anda dpt tau si A nih sbnrya ada masalah utk manage duit nya.. apa the best advice(s) yg bleh anda offer kpd si A????

pendapat2 sahabat saya dahulukan dgn jazakallahu khairan katheera... :D

Spongebob

venue: Seminar Room 1, IMU
Time: 2-4pm


a classmate of mine, who we called him as 'Genius' ~and even a few lecturers do say that he's a genius... ~ ('.') - he said:

they call me spongebob...



and we all were like.. "huh??? why???"

and he answered: "Coz i can absorb everything... anything people say, i can absorb.. that's why i'm genius ma..." ~the Genius in his funny and perasan tone.. =P ~

LOL

well...i think, i'm enjoying and having a good time learning medic with my current posting-mates... :)

there's another 1 week plus,b4 our last posting (orthopaedic) ends.. after that its going to be 2 weeks of study break, then, exam time! and we'll have a new group next sem... hurmm.. well again i think, i'm gonna miss this group...

fun, laughter, geram, marah, sindir, ejek, blur, kepoci, perasan, all the chinese words they all taught me and farah... and a lot more reasons for me to love this group... :D

frens... all d best in our coming EOS!!!!! i know most of us believe in God... so,do pray, may God help all of us in the exam! :D

a verse from Quran:

And say: "Work (righteousness): Soon will Allah observe your work, and His Messenger, and the Believers: Soon will ye be brought back to the knower of what is hidden and what is open: then will He show you the truth of all that ye did."

[9:105]

as Muslims, we believe that our God observe our work, instead of looking at the outcome... thats why, we believe that, in everything we do, we have to work hard and try our best, no matter how the outcome is going to be!

so guys and girls, lets start working now!!! =D

Durian

it's Durian season now!

Ching Mun invited me and farah to join her and frens to eat durian today.. but since i've eaten dinner, and today was actually quite a long day for me n farah... so when we arrived home, we were already exhausted... and farah after dinner she straight away went to sleep... so, left only me, CM n Khung Ying eating the durian...

and it tasted very nice! eventhough i kenyang, but the smell and the very nice taste, made me very tempted to eat more and more durians... one after another... luckily the frens came... and they were TJ and Ernest... so kerana kemalasan nak tuka baju, pakai tudung n etc, jd i stopped eating and sat quietly in front of laptop+book in my room.. ahaqs.. alhamdulillah, their arrival at least prevent me from adding some more lemak to my body!

to CM, thanx a lot! :D may God bless u.. :)

p/s: terasa spt mau pulang rumah! sbb kalau blk umah mesti dpt makan durian dgn lg byknya! sbb ayah spt mksd namanya (razak), murah rezeki bila musim durian tibe... sooo...bila dah kenal ramai sgt org, slalu la dpt free durian drp kwn2nya yg ada dusun durian... hehehe...

~hurmm...somewhere in April-May 2008, b4 musim durian bermula, Dr. ZZ ada offer azi n farah ke dusun durian keluarganya... kerana katanya none of his family members makan durian... tetapi.. agak2, adakah offer ini valid lg? =P ~

dan durian... satu lg nikmat ALLAH yg x dpt kita nafikan ke'best'annya... :D

Hadis - Maruah diri

Drpd Ibnu Umar r.a katanya: Rasulullah SAW bersabda:-


Berbuat baiklah kepada kedua-dua ibu bapa kamu. kelak kamu akan dilayan baik oleh anak-anak kamu. jagalah maruah diri kamu, pasti isterimu akan menjaga diri dan maruah mereka.

-hadis Rasulullah SAW-

Thank you

alhamdulillah... finally, we are done with our research project! we officially 'close' this research chapter of our medic students' life story book as we have passed it up last friday.. :D

special thanx to prof CSK who have helped us a lot!

next, many thanx to the research group members, Calvin Wong, Alyssa and Xiu Jin... i had a good time working with u all! :D

and millions thanx, to all my batchmates who have voluntarily or 'involuntarily' participated in our "e-learning haematology course"... and those who have been part of our research thingy as the control group... TQ for spending ur time answering pre and post questions.. (",) although i know, all of us are bz studying for current postings la, for final la, ur own research, CFCS etc...

terima kasih juga kpd mak ayah di atas doa2 yg x pernah2 putus tuh... :D

and thank you ALLAH for alwiz being with me.. :) mmg, dlm menunggu research nih siap, there are times that i feel very stressed.... but alhamdulillah... saya tahu, saya ada ALLAH sbg tempat mengadu, meminta dan rahmatNya yg melimpah ruah utk hamba2Nya... (^_^)

research habis.. now i need to come back to the old chapter; CFCS...

and i know, next weekend i'd be busy utk buat report plak for Ortho posting.. huhu.. xde lg istilah beristirehat during weekends... rasanya mmg dah teramat2 lama x keluar utk ber(window) shopping tanpa perlu memikirkan hal2 berkaitan ngan studies... dan smlm, kerana perlu keluar utk buat spectacles yg framenya patah [again.. =( ], jd kesempatan tuh digunakan la utk pg bjln2 shopping kasut kejap... satu keperluan.. utk gantikan kasut lama yg dah uzur.. wpun kejap aje, but alhamdulillah, at least dpt la dijadikan as therapy after more than 2 weeks perah otak and tenaga for research...

again, i would like to say THANK YOU VERY VERY MUCH to all who have helped me and my colleagues in this research project!

HAEMATOLOGY IS COOL!

Fikirkan lah... dan bersyukurlah! dgn ciptaan2 ALLAH yg hebat ini... kerana dgn sel2 darah yg amat2 kecil ini ia dpt membuat kita bernyawa hingga hari ini... ALLAH is THE GREATEST!