AYAH

today i followed the ward round... again, me n farah chose to follow Dr Yap's ward round.. because he looks very nice... n yup, he is very nice! :D lgpun today, Dr Yap did a ward round for a different cubical... so a lot we can learn since in that cubical, the patients are different patients from yesterday's ward round..

hurmm.. i was listening very carefully in the beginning... sampaila satu patient nih, who I know she has Tetralogy of Fallot.. sama disease nyer dgn my late sister... ntah nape, sampai je turn patient nih, i suddenly became emotional... i started to feel very2 sad... air mata dah bergenang... and to avoid it, i tried la to pandang tempat lain instead of tgk muka that 6 year old girl and ayahnya.. bila tgk aje diorg, air mata kembali bergenang.. huhuhu.. mmg i didnt listen at all to wut Dr Yap and his HO discuss during that time... :( lg2, bile teringat kisah yg baru je azi dgr drp mak yg bercerita cuti baru2 nih... katanya dulu, masa arwah Kakni (panggilan family utk my late sister) masuk sekolah darjah satu... ermm..masa tuh, our family was still staying in Kerteh, and ayah masa tuh kerja kat bandar Chukai... which jarak die adalah lebih kurang SEJAM... mak cerita, ayah camne pun dlm pukul 10 akan balik ke kerteh dr tempat kerjanya tuh, semata2 nak temankan kakni makan... yela, kakni sakit, and x dpt nak beli makanan sendiri... lg2 tempat crowded cam di kantin tuh... bayangkanlah, pagi hantar ke sekolah, then gi kerja jap, pastu kena blk pulak pukul 10, then dtg blk tghari utk amik dr sekolah... azi pun x sure, masa tuh ayah dh owned a car ke x??? tp klu x, mesti dia berulang alik ngan motosikal je... mmg penat tuh naik motor for 1 hour! ngan kena berpanas and berhujan lagi...

hurmm..tula KASIH SEORANG AYAH.... azi ingat lg, i never saw my dad cried b4 this, except this one time... iaitu masa ari pengebumian arwah kakni... not really crying la, tp i can see his eyes were very red masa sibuk nak pindahkan jenazah ke keranda.. ready utk bawa ke tanah perkuburan... even malam b4 that masa arwah meninggal di hospital Tunku Ampuan Afzan pun, i didnt see him crying... tenang aje, uruskan segala hal pd mlm tu... itula the ONLY time i see him with the red eyes...

ayah.. from his appearance, we know he's been working very hard since young! [to be accurate, since his childhood age actually]

until now, my dad masih setia antar and amik anak2nya ke dan dari sekolah.... huh... dah berpuluh2 tahun kan??? betapa besarnya jasa ayah... ntah nape ayah taknak pun bagi kitorg adik beradik naik van or bas sekolah... lg2, masa zaman adik2 ku yg tiga org sekarang nih... dgn sekolah yg berlainan, masa balik yg berlainan... agak leceh kan... dlm sehari ntah brp kali berulang alik ke rumah... haih... minyak kete cepat aje habis... ermm..sekarang mgkn ok, masih kerja, bleh claim at least half of duit minyak tuh dr office... tp nnt dah pencen???

tapi itula ayah... selalu utamakan anak2nya...

~masa ward round tuh, i knew, i had to run for a tissue! sbb dah ade fluid yg mengalir drp my nose... ahaqs.. ~

hhmm..sama jgk ngan si gadis kecil tadi, ayahnya sentiasa ada di sisinya... insyaAllah, azi doakan, moga adik ini akan cepat sembuh... moga adik ni willing utk buat operation... [in my sister's case, bukan duit yg menjadi masalah, tp she was the one who afraid to go for operation] n pastu, bleh membesar spt kanak2 lain jgk... :D ameen.. and parents adik ni pun, x perlu lagi risau... i knew, from my parents' story, it is very2 hard to take care a child with heart disease! masa baby, arwah kakni x henti2 nangis.. mak cerita, bila arwah tido, barula mak dapat buat kerja lain... and byk lg kesusahan yg i dengar, or even tgk dgn mata sendiri... besarnya pengorbanan mereka... and sungguh sabar mak and ayahku!!! ~i am very very proud of them! :D~

jadi kawan2, hargailah jasa ayah anda... mgkn kita x dapat merasai directly, tapi sebenarnya, every single father has his own way to show his love and different ways to different child... jadi xyah nak rasa ayah lebih sayangkan 'kakak', 'abang' or 'adik' or sape2la... most ayah mmg sayangkan semua anak2nya tanpa berbelah bahagi!!!!

haih... i was crying actually while typing this entry... esp bila type pasal kisah 'ayah n kakni'... and now dah kering jer... again, i need to stop typing, sbb kene grab for a tissue! ahaqs..

k, sentiasalah ingat utk berdoa utk mak ayah kita, setiap hari, esp tiap kali lepas solat and bile2 masa sahaja!!!! moga doa2 anak yg soleh dpt membawa kebahagiaan dunia dan akhirat utk mak ayah kita... :D

Ingatlah hadis Nabi saw yang bermaksud :-

Jika mati seorang anak Adam maka putuslah segala pahala amalan-nya melainkan tiga perkara 1.Ilmu yang memberi manafa’at 2.Sedekah amal jariah 3.Anak yang soleh, yang mendoakan kedua orang tuanya setelah mereka meninggal dunia.